Midnight visit

I am drunk...a bit drunk...

l should not go into the Big Boss's office...

Anyways, the door wont open when I am drunk, the system wont allow me to enter...

The Big Boss has thought about everything...

He takes care of us... He tries his best to protect us...

But he has also given us the power to fall and get hurt...

He gave us the options: either you are clear and straightforward you know what you want and you say it at the right moment..

Or you are ambiguous, unclear an you miss the chance and live in regret...

He has given us the choice...

and he has given us second chances...

I want to use my second chance card...

To tell you that I love and that I miss you and that I will always live with the hope to touch you and feel you...

It is not a quiet night...dogs are barking, the moon is aching...

when will I see you again?

The Big Boss has the answer but he won't reveal it...

Suffering is part of the healing...

But what is healing?

Is it that I won't remember you eyes?

I can not forget your eyes... I dont want the healing...

Leave me with my sufferings...

Anyways.. it does not feel as if I am suffering...

It feels as if I am waiting...

Just like Godot...

And I will continue rolling the stone as Sisyphe did all his life...

I wont be tired...

I am always relying on the universe to show me the best of this life..

and you were and will stay a part of the best of my life...

I am what I am...

You are what you are...

Our lives will cross again...

We missed the chance this time again...

But next time... nothing will stop in my way...

I love you... I will always love you...

Next time when I see you... I wont think twice...

I was stupid and wont do the same mistake again...

Suddenly, the door opened and the Big Boss entered to my room...

He looked at me...

He told me to go to bed...

He covered me...kissed me on my cheek and wished me a good night...

Good night...