Jerusalem... Jesus...Peace and...I

Yesterday, while I was diving into the old and ancient history of Jerusalem, and enjoying the discoveries I was making, and while I was connecting the pieces of the puzzle of Jerusalem and the Middle East...an idea crossed my mind...

It brought me back to the surface...

Why did I stop watching the classic "Jesus of Nazareth"...even though I was among the faithful audience  for years...

I thought about it and the answer came to me this morning...

I stopped watching the movie, when I became convinced that the story of Jesus will not change and they will still crucify him...

For years I watched the movie and year after year on the same scene where Pilate was to decide on Jesus' fate, I wished that he will release him...

I stopped watching...when I knew that I can not change the course of history...and whatever is written is written and no one can change it...

I am thinking of all these things because the book "Jerusalem" that I am reading is leading me to believe that it is all written in the Middle East and that now is not the time for peace...because it is written and because the prophets said so...

It is not in vain that the Ark of covenant is not found yet, it is not in vain that the temple is not built again, is not in vain that Anwar Sadat was assassinated, it is not in vain that Rabin was killed for the sake of Judaism, it is not in vain that Sharon is laying in bed in his coma...

It is not the time for peace now...God has not decided that it is time now..

How can I live with this theory as a secular? How can I accept this? and how about the free will of humans?

So, what? shall I stop thinking of peace the same way I stopped watching the movie "Jesus of Nazareth"?